How do you get over people who you've grown up with? How do you accustom yourself to a lifestyle without the people who have been the essence of your lives for 5 (and in some cases, 7) whole years?
Sometimes, I wake up and get start to get ready for school. And then I realise that school is over. It's kind of drastic in my head. The end of an entire era. Now I have new friends. I like them, I really do, but they can't replace that gaping hole in my heart that came as a part of my friends leaving for different countries. Jesika is in MIT, Siddharth is in Alberta, Sasha is in Boston, Ayush is in Boston. It's like my heart's pieces are scattered all over the world and I just feel so incomplete.Sometimes I wish I could freeze time into that one frame, that I could be in those same corridors, running around; or that I could sit on those same chairs in the sixth floor social area and look at people do their thing; or that I could go to Mr Joshi's office and ask him to read my latest poem; or that I could sit in Mr Rojoa's class with Sasha and Sayli; or that I could sit in French class in the 9th grade with Jesika and Khushbu; or that I could sit with Ayush annoying me in Ms Delphine's class; or that I could play on the volleyball court with Akriti and Mr Bert and the rest of the team. I miss all of this. I miss every moment I spent there. I want to go back and do karaoke on Baga Beach; I want to go to the back to the rocky beach with Jesika, Jashan and Harsh and just climb that trail despite the scorpions; I want to sit and talk on the beach amidst the waves with Jesika and Sasha; I want to go dancing with everyone again; I want to eat Ferrero Rocher brownies with Pandu and Butta and Sasha and make Maggi at all conceivable hours for us; I want to go to Lila Cafe and have breakfast sausages and mango smoothies; I want to drink endless beer and splash in the pool with beers in our hands; I want to be drunk and take care of drunk people again.
Sometimes, I feel like I've not utilised my time to the best. I could do so much more with my friends, tell them I love them so much, tell them that I would give everything to relive those 5 years.
I want to go back to those days. I really do.
I miss you guys. And I love all of you. Honestly.
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