Forgetting you

I've written a poem after very long. Comments would be appreciated. :)

I look up to see the stars shine back

Upon me, and I wish,

That one day you would see

What you mean to me,

And how I’d been what you wanted me to be.

I let you mould me and look what you made me,

Something so ugly, to be destroyed

Into a million pieces,

So that it is never found again.

So here I am, fading away,

Slowly, so that you never see me,

Slipping away into the shadows of the night

Unable to face the ogre in me.

You were what made me become this monster

And you are the reason that I kill it today,

For you were never pleased with me

However hard I made you desire what had

Come to become of me.

A memory slowly slips away,

Suddenly I can’t remember your eyes,

Or how it felt to be in your arms

Or lay beside you in bed at night,

To be a part of you

And make you a part of me,

Perhaps you didn’t deserve the chance

To know what I could really be.

A new start

Sometimes, things end up being such a mess and sometimes things just seem fine, just the way they are. Recently, I've had this floating feeling of contentment, like everything's going right and to be honest, it is. I like being able to look in the mirror and smile at myself. Except for my vital stats, of course, I practically love everything about myself. And I'm working on those vital stats.
Today, while studying FC, I spaced out for a bit and started thinking of university. Up until now, I was laidback about my studies, I was content being a part of Mumbai University, but now, I'm not. I want to go to a good, proper university. I want to live on campus, I want a new life, not because I'm dissatisfied with my present one, but because I love change. I want to go to fun parties, I want to write term papers on my own, I want my own little part of a room and put up pictures of people I love there. I want to explore new places, make new friends, and yet, I won't forget my friends and people here.
So I'm going to apply for fall next year. I'm determined to make it and my parents are supporting me. What more do I need?