Resurrection

Dying.

Can I breathe life into your withered soul?

Silence.

Can you hear the leaves breathe?

Serenity.

Can you hear my heart beat?

Calm.

Can you feel my hands on your icy skin?

Silent.

Are you comfortable now?

Rain.

Can you feel the silent drops cleanse your soul?

Dreams.

Are you dreaming already, of you and me?

Waves.

Can you feel the strength of the wall we’ve built?

Singing.

Eulogies sung in the name of our eternal love.

Hope.

Do you remember how it was to be unloved anymore?

Laughter.

You, me, little secrets, only for our hearts to know.

Memories.

Indelible, uncountable, yet each so precious.

Love.

Do you feel what I feel right now?

Living.

Withered no more, I can see your soul soar, free, happy, with me.

Back to blogging <3

Yeah, so I haven't blogged in Christ-knows-how-long. I've just been so caught up in everything. Everything here stands as a synonym for work, school work I mean. The past few days have been a crazy whirlwind of things, trying to balance my time between studies and friends (boyfriend included); during which, sleep has been completely ignored. I finally have eyes that look like I've carved them out from the face of a panda bear and stuck them on my face. Yeah, it's that bad, and I'm not even exaggerating.
But today was so much fun xD! Started with Adhishree and me having orange liquor mixed with vodka. Neat :P. And all that alcohol went to my head and I was sort of dizzy with Patil on her epic terrace! And then Ankit the great made his great entry late. Stupid chutfuck. But then we sat and played Truth and Dare on the terrace and did some unmentionable things :P. But amongst the mentionables, Ankit did an erotic dance for us and Adhishree licked my foot :P. I think I died laughing xD! God I love spanking Ankit and Adhishree, it's so fucking fun :D! [If you think that sounds weird then shut up :P]
God, I have to put the finishing touches to this fucked up shit, my extended essay. Due on Monday, along with a bunch of other things. I'm so screwed, but who the fuck cares? I had an awesome day ;D!
That's all for now, ciao <3

Vacations :)

So I'm at the start of my "vacations" and I'm trying to make the most of the first two days. After which, I will of course have to get down to studies. Completing my EE and IAs. And trying to understand Math of course -_-
I went for Wake Up Sid today. I think it's my first movie in a theatre after like.. 5 months. What the fuck! :O
It was fun though :). I went with Amogh and had fun :) :).
I don't feel like writing much. So that's all for now.
The ear piercings hurt by the way.
Catch you later, bye!

End of my birthday

So today has been so much better than I expected it to be :).
In fact it's been fucking awesome :).
I went for lunch with Amogh and then I went got my awesome-ass piercings :D!
And then I had the funnest, most crazy evening with Adhishree Patil and Ankit Desai! Oh my God, I haven't laughed as hard in a long long while xD! And shit, I was so high. :P
Yeah, it was awesome :).

Birthday? Meh

So today's the day that people usually create a big deal of.. a birthday. But more annoying is the fact that it's my birthday, so I'm expected to be excited, pissing in my pants with joy. And when I tell people not to blow it out of proportion and not to be so excited they just look at me like I'm mad or like I am the killjoy here. Seriously, I don't get what's wrong with not being excited about my birthday :S. It's not a written rule to be excited, and even if it is, it's not mandatory to follow every rule in the book.
The only benefit I got out of this entire birthday sham is that I get to bunk school and spend the first half of the day with Amogh and the second half with Adhishree. I'm also going to be a cool rebel and get my ear pierced without my parents' permission. To quote Adhishree "Epic! You rule! :)"
So this has significantly improved my mood. Not so much the piercing as the fact that I'm being a rebel.
Really, I can't wait to get out of this hell-hole called the IB and get back to leading a normal teenage life in college.
God I love my friends. At least some of them. The ones who care. The rest can just go fuck themselves.
That's all for now. I'll welcome you with pictures of cool ear piercings. Ciao :)

Inspire

I have nothing left to lose

So I let go, let go.

I have nothing left to gain

But I hold on, hold on.

I’m still hoping, still hoping,

For something better to come.

Time is running, pacing, chasing,

And yet I’m only waiting, only waiting.

Sweet lullabies cradle the dark night,

No sunlight unto the morn, unto the morn.

It’s new, it’s new,

And yet so old, so familiar.

Shadows play upon my window,

Dancing in the sweetened light of dawn.

I can hear you whisper, oh so gentle,

Come hither, come hither.

I can see the fear,

Even though I’m here, so near.

I’ll put you to sleep, just close your eyes,

Can you hear what I’ve tried to disguise?

There’s fear, there’s pain,

There’s love, there’s hope.

Trying to balance what’s left in my mind,

Spiral, spiral, downward.

But now it’s different.

Smile,

It’s beautiful, that smile.

Laugh,

I can hear the tinkling laugh.

Dream,

Paint your imagination with hues unknown.

Sing,

Your voice is the sweet lullaby again.

Hope,

Maybe it’s not as bad as it seems.

Holding on,

Because I have everything to hold on to.

Holding on,

Because you’re all I have.

Holding on,

Because I can’t lose you.

A Memory Obscure

Chasing through the recesses of my mind for that one little memory... of us, of you and me, together. So hard to find, so hard to keep, so hard to believe, so hard to let go. You. Me. Perfection. Past. You. Me. Presently apart. No more music. No more love. No breath left. No more sanity. Quiet. Still.

Screaming. Shouting. Glass. Splintering. Shards. Piercing me. The pain is there. The pain is fading. The blood flows. It flows. It flows. The floor is a wine glass. Drink my blood. Quench your thirst. Satiate your desire. I’m your prey. You’re the predator. I’m your slave. You’re the master.

Slash your whip. My bare body surrenders. Not a whimper. Not a sound. My eyes are closing. Slipping away. Holding on. Tangible. Letting go. No more sounds. No more pain. No more gain. Just silence. Your breath. My breath. Fast. Faster. Pacing. Panting.

Crawling. Tumbling. Waiting. Light. Darkness. Everything. Nothing. Sense. No vision. Peace. Blood. Silver. Flash. Exposed. Raw. Wounded. Hurt. Gone.

Smile. Together. Again. Pause. Is this momentary? Questions. No answers. More questions. I want the answers. I’m the master. You’re the slave. I have the whip. Your body trembles. Quivers. Shakes. Power. Struggle. Controlling you. Quiet. Give me the answers. More quiet. Why? Why the silence? Answer me. You asked for a chance. Here’s one. A chance. You have five seconds. Four. Three. What? What is that you say? Louder. Oh. Lies. Lies. Lies. More bloody lies. I shake my head. You’ve always lied. Conniving bastard.

Forgetting you. All about you. Your insignificant stature. Your mortal features. Forgotten. Your face is a mystery. One that will remain unsolved. Like the blackness of your heart. Your fragmented soul. Shattered. Non-existent now.

Silence. Sweet. You’re gone. I’ve moved on. Hatred. Burning. Blistering. Let go. I’ve forgotten you. Not forgiven. Only forgotten.

Peace. Quiet. A life free of you. Your lies. Your deception.

Love. My heart is mended. You can’t even see the gaping hole you tore into it. It’s beating. Faster than before. You’re gone. Forever. You never knew to love. Now I know to love.

Blaa Blee Bloo Blapunkt

I feel like a ping pong ball today. I've even been making strange noises all day, and this is isn't really help restore my rapidly disintegrating sanity. Today feels like a blah-day and if you haven't had one of those, you're most certainly not human. I feel snappish and crabby and bitchy. And I'll possibly scream at someone if they annoy me instead of asking them not to.
The paper today.. 'twas good I must say. As is with all Business and Management papers, I felt like I had so much more left to write once I left LT 7. There's always so much left to write, but fortunately, I had covered a substantial number of points in my answers. Or so I hope. I think I'm flipping now. Merde!
The gum I'm eating now doesn't taste so nice anymore. I love Orbit Spearmint under normal circumstances but as I've already mentioned, today's my abnormal day so it tastes kind of yucky. And yes, I'm too lazy to go spit it out so I'll probably whine about it till I actually do.
Moreover, today is my special I-do-not-feel-like-talking-to-anyone day. So I'll probably just switch my phone off and sleep some more. Wake up, cram Psychology [unpleasant thought!!], eat crappy dinner, crash.. again. And wake up to a possibly more cheerful day. Until I realise that it's a Sunday and that I'll spend the whole day marooned in my house, being antisocial. Sigh.
I'm really hoping for one of those signature mood-swings wherein I'll actually swing back to the happy me. Meh. Whatever.
That's all for now. Sorry for the incredibly moody and crappy post.

No malaria :D

Yay, yay, yay! I don't have malaria :D!
Today, I had this icky blood test and a urine sample thingy too. They shoved this dirty syringe in my vein and drew out a shocking amount of blood into the dirty injection thing. And then the guy poured out the blood into this [cute] tiny test tube and shook it like it was milkshake or something :S. Strange guy :P.
But worst of all, I had to pee in a bottle. It was so gross. Really. I hate this crap.
I was forced to go out of the house in horrendously ugly cotton trousers and my pretty lemon top because I was too weak to change :S.
But I have low haemoglobin count which sucks ass. Because apparently I've become pale and all. Meh.
Today's paper was pretty good :). But it all depends on the examiner, I guess. So I'm sending telepathic signals to Mr. Nishanth and asking him for a good grade.
I have Business on Saturday. And I'm too lazy to study for it. But I'll study tomorrow. Promise. Pinky promise. God promise. All those silly promises :P.
I love Amogh. He's trop cool. I miss him :(.
And I miss Adhishree.
But my birthday's coming :D. And I'm going to go shopping!! Wheeeeeeeeeeee :D
That's all for now, much more later <3